I'm a mum now?!

Omg, I have so many posts lined up in my drafts and none of them are completed! This time, I’m telling myself I’ll publish something even if it's a short one. Haha.

So, from my last update, I’m now a mum... WHAT? I know, right? It’s crazyyy. I’m sitting here in front of a sleeping little baby girl, typing my blog very softly on the keyboard because the sound might wake her up. Haha. It’s a Saturday evening, in my living room with my bbg, while Divan is in bed because he’s not feeling well—headache.

I just want to do a quick update here and remember how I feel at this point in time—grateful. I’m so incredibly grateful for everything I have. Seeing people go through IVF and trying so hard to have a child really breaks my heart. I can never fully understand how painful it is, but just watching a few reels already makes me feel so much heartache. ♡

Ok, back to my mama life. Actually, to be honest, it’s much harder than I thought it would be. I think the mental side is more taxing than the physical—at least in the beginning. Now, I’m already a happy and grateful mama. At first, I just couldn’t accept that I had officially lost my personal life and personal space. Everyone told me it was too late to not accept it. Well, it took me two months to truly accept it. Sometimes, I really miss those nights out with either Divan or my girls.

Now, every Friday, we look forward to our baby finally sleeping around 9pm. Then we pull out a packet of chips from the cabinet and watch either Modern Family or any new movies on Netflix. I think we’re slowly starting to enjoy it, actually. Haha.

Our life has changed a lot, but we’re learning how to go with the flow and accept it. Parenthood is really different. I remember we went to this parenting class two months before the baby was born, and one of the doctors reminded us—YOU ARE THE BOSS, NOT THE BABY. I kept reminding Divan of that line because we always tend to do things around the baby, and not the other way around. Maybe not now, since she’s still so young, and we need to work around her nap time, feeding time, and protect her from germs. But I think when she’s six months, we really need to let her know who’s the boss... Never mind, okay, for now, Daddy and Mummy will let you be the boss. HEHE.

Now, she’s 10 weeks old. (Divan always reminds me, “The days are long, but the years are short,” whenever I’m feeling down or tired.) The magical thing about having a baby is when she smiles at you, or when she does something beyond your expectations—your heart just spills with happiness like magic. ♡ I think all you daddies and mummies out there know exactly what I mean. Hehe.

Okay, that’s all for now. Oh, wait—one more thing! We used to think our baby’s cries were so gentle and lady-like. This week, she proved us wrong. She’s got some strong lungs! Hahaha. Ok, bye! Till next time.

xx,
Maine