Mainely-me

Omg, I have so many posts lined up in my drafts and none of them are completed! This time, I’m telling myself I’ll publish something even if it's a short one. Haha. So, from my last update, I’m now a mum... WHAT? I know, right? It’s crazyyy. I’m sitting here in front of a sleeping little baby girl, typing my blog very softly on the keyboard because the sound might wake her up. Haha. It’s a Saturday evening, in my living room with my bbg, while Divan is in bed because he’s not feeling well—headache. I just want to do a quick update here and remember how I feel at this point in time—grateful. I’m so incredibly grateful for everything I have. Seeing people go through IVF and trying so hard to have a child really breaks my heart. I can never fully understand how painful it is, but just watching a few reels already makes me feel so much heartache. ♡ Ok, back to my mama life. Actually, to be honest, it’s much harder than I thought it would be. I think the mental side is more taxing than ...

 A lot of people asked me.. How do you feel when you turn 30? TBH, there is not much difference, except some body aching and also always feeling tired. Haha.  I think if you ask what is the different between now and 10 years ago, all I can say is, I am STILL THE SAME but maybe richer and wiser. I am trying to keep the good element or behavior of a young person, for example, dare to dream and brave enough to take risks and fight for things that I think its right.  Sometimes it is quite tiring when i fight for things that I think its right, but ended up I am wrong.. zzz especially my view on guys.. if not i wont have so many ex-es and ohs also. hahahhahaha  But... THIS TIME I AM PRETTY SURE I AM RIGHT! HEHE.  I really think we meet everyone in our life for a reason, we cross path for a reason. Haha. some made you a better person, some made you realize how amazing you are without them.  By the way, just feel like sharing this, I am currently very stressful wit...

​it was a great night indeed  Thanks everyone for coming. Those that truly matter to me. Felt super loved and pampered. Thanks to those who helped out (physically and financially) during the event too, which includes my two brothers, my lovely parents, aunties, uncles, lovely friends and my bebieeee.  On that day I realized everyone that were there really play big roles in my life 🤍 we don’t meet everyday but they are really important to me. 🥺  one wasn’t there, she is far far away in the land of kangaroo. Nevermind. I’ll see her and my god-daughter soon. Hehe. Ahhh. Feeling super blessed and contented. 😶‍🌫️    Till then ❤️ 

 I just binged watch MAID on Netflix. It was.. quite good. It wasn't super exciting from beginning until the end, but somehow I think i can relate to whatever happen in the series. This is not something I am proud of and definitely not something that I wish that I can relate. So, why did I say I can relate huh? Hmmm. its story timeeee, go and prepare your popcorn.  If i were watch this series 10 years ago, I would be like... DUMB OR WHAT? THE GUY IS SHIT & ABUSIVE, JUST LEAVE HIM... But sadly, I sort of understand why they stayed even their bf or husbands are crazy ass abusive motherfuckers. Around 6 years back, when I first met my ex, he was a nice guy & seemed to be super gentleman. Why did I say he is a nice guy, he's a guy that would prepare tissues  when you are washing your hands after using the toilet, hold your hair while you are vomiting after a clubbing night. (maybe i was young, i fall for that kinda random lil things) Oh well, things started off pretty...

 Yes, just randomly have the inspiration to write. Actually its because i bought a new laptop, so just want to test out the keyboard and make sure every key works. HAHHAHAHA.  (Ignore the polaroid photo, I just found it from one of my file)  I started working since Monday and I really think my new company is a fast moving company and I really look forward to work for them! It's been awhile since the last time i can spend freely in the company. Hahhaha. kidding. I mean it's not that bad and my team seems quite cool and nice (too soon to say, but i can feel it...)  I know this blog only read by less than 10 people but they are really important people, so I will keep this blog alive for THEM! muahahaha.  Okay. speaking of inspiration, I just finished Gossip Girl V2. It is actually not bad, it is not that mainstream (girls with long hair), the girl is actually bald. After watching that movie, I think it is scary (but exciting) if we have a gossip girl in our lives. ...

 Hi everyone,  Normally when i say starting of something new, or a new chapter ahead, means I just broke up or just had a rough and stupid relationship. But it's different this time. Haha! I am starting a new job and tomorrow is my first day... Wish me luck?  I have mixed feelings, excited yet nervous. I guess it is normal to feel that way after staying and getting comfortable in one company for almost 6 years. So now, it's time to move on and never look back. Airasia has given me a lot, like chances to travel WHENEVER i want, meeting new and nice people, learning how to deal with a lot of shits and of course dealing with stupid people. Oooops. Not stupid, just people that are hard to deal with.  Just finished watching Gossip Girl 2021. It is surprisingly nice, although many of them said it is really bad compared to the first one. But who asked u to compare? why cant you just watch it and give the new people a chance. Oh well, everyone has their own POV anyways.... B...

 Hi guys,  I think my readers only a few of you. But I love all of you a lot a lot because you all always stay tuned for my posts. (I hope, haha). Alright. I am starting my new job in less than a month time and I am nervous and excited at the same time.  Before getting into my job and shit... the latest update:  I took my second jab today, its for the Covid Vaccine (need to mention its for covid because maybe 10 years later, when i read my blog again, i wont know what jab is that for, hahaha)  (for myself to remember...I took a photo while i was shitting after the second dose)  I wanted a nice photo at the photobooth, but i looked like a person that kena covid, not kena jabbed. LOL.. Damn geli. Oh well. its okay. i have this...  Alright back to me switching job, I have a mixed feeling with switching my job. I am excited because I can't wait to start a new adventure and can't wait to learn! and of course, I am excited to meet new people as well! Bu...

 I think it's been awhile since I've felt contented and happy. Hmmm. Money can't buy happiness, but without money, you wont be happy. Oh well, this is fact and nobody can deny that. Somebody asked me before, would you rather cry in a Myvi or cry in a Mercedes or BMW? Hahhahahhaa. stupid example, and i still think it is stupid. LOL  By the way, recently I am super into F1. Watching them driving so fast, the adrenaline and heartbeat and uncertainty of what is going to happen next just felt so good. I guess it is a sign of aging. Nothing in life is so exciting anymore. Things are sweet and stable now. Not much of ups and downs... Sometimes it is a good thing, but sometimes the inner me will be thinking... Is that all for my life?.... Sigh... Maybe also plus we are in the middle of the lockdown so there's nothing much we can do. Haha.  I've resigned a couple of weeks ago. and now i am in the midst of adjusting from one company to another. I am still in airasia, but I wi...

  This is just purely sharing, not sponsored. (not enough views to get sponsored anyways) hahahahaha. Since we cant travel overseas and people are desperate for vacation, so LOCAL STAYCATION IT IS!  A few months back, I've decided to visit Desaru in Johor because I saw a few nice hotels around that area. At the end, we've decided to visit Westin Desaru because the prices are reasonable and the hotel reviews are good.  Okayyy, let the photos do the talking then:-  So, we booked from a friend of ours who worked in Sedunia Travels. And the service was superb.  The room we've chosen is the Premier Sea View, Guest room, 1 King, Sea view, Balcony I think the surrounding of the resort is really clean and well maintained. However, the only problem we had was there were not many places to explore nearby the resort. It is in the middle of nowhere. But, we managed to find a place for seafood restaurant around 5km from the resort BUT IT IS HELL OF A SCARY ROAD on the way th...