Hello everybodehhh,
Today I just want to share a bit about whatever is going on for the past 6 months. Hmmm. So I have completed my degree last year December. Then decided to come back first regardless of anything (REGRET LIKE CRAZY NOW). I regretted for being so weak to be homesick most of the time there in Aussie. WTH man, how old d, some more homesick. I will never understand the situation I had half year ago. lol. anywayyyy.... ok. so I came back in December 2014 then I just stayed and rested at home in Penang for around a month.... Then my mum started nagging me and asked me to apply for job and beautify my resume. Oh well.... I just engsiu engsiu a bit because I just graduated, can't all of you just let me rest awhile before I start a new job, because I know once I start working, I am going to work for the rest of my life.
So, around January, me and my parents went down to KL just to visit my 'K-pa' and 'K-mak'.... And then did a little shopping during the trip. And then after 2 days in KL, we drove back to penang. And guess what, when we were on the way back to Penang, my godfather called and asked me whether I am interested to join his team in consulting AmBank for GST project... Actually during the 'vacation', they kept asking me what am I going to do next ah,.. this and that.. Okay, of course I answered them like a professional lar. Wanna impress them mar... Hahhaha. So........ I told him to let me consider for awhile because I really dunno whether the job suits me or not, or whether I can cope or not. However, that day was Friday then he said if I am interested, then I have to start work on Monday. R U FUCKING KIDDING ME?! Like 2 days notice? =.='' Of course my parents told me that they will support me no matter what, but they reckon that this opportunity is a GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY as it will be a great stepping stone for my career path. TBH, I really don't mind giving a try, but thinking of the need to stay with them under one roof makes me soooooo stress out and cray cray. So I cried that night until I fell sleep in my bed. The next day morning (Saturday) when I woke up, I thought it was just a dream;. But unfortunately its not. ughhhh.. So I went to meet my boyfriend to discuss with him about this 'plan' that I feel it is going to happen no matter what. I was soooo scared. You guys must be wondering why am I so scared to move in to my godparents' place.... hahahahaha. Ok, let me explain.... Both of them are really controlling, but in a better way of saying is 'overly concern' Like super over that type. Besides, my godfather is not a very easy type of guy, he has his temper and super strict (god knows why)
So, if I decide to take this job, means GOODBYE FREEDOM & GOODBYE NIGHTLIFE & GOODBYE BRA-LESS DAYS AT HOME. As everyone knows, I am a very good girl who will listen to my parents' advice. Okay... maybe not, I am quite rebellious... Hhhaha. But at least I am rational when I have to make serious decisions... SO, finally I decided to take the job, but I will only go over to KL on Wednesday. And of course I continued crying for the next few days after making the decision.... My boyfriend was with me most of the time because when I am alone then I will start crying again. No la. actually I cried when he was around also. I felt bad also actually. Because that plan wasn't the initial plan. The initial plan was I go back to Adelaide with him and find a job there then we will live happily ever after. Okayyy.. now we also broke up d. What else to say ahhh. Plan gone, relationship gone, future is super duper ultra unclear. How am I suppose to walk down the road ahhh?! U tell me la. Luckily I have a bunch of supportive friends around me. Hehehee. Although they kek me most of the time lar. But I know they love me deep inside them. HHhahahahaha. I assume lar. <3
5 months have gone just like that. These 5 months, I really learnt a lot from the project/job. although I did not really have my personal and private time. But me and my cousin definitely became closer.... Heheheheh We need super rebellious and crazy things as well. Hahahha :D I love her <3
So.... the same question again.... What am I going to do next? Honestly, I HAVE NO IDEA. rest and go for holiday first, then only decidethen. #yolo
That's all for today. I will try to update my blog more. (I WILL TRY)
Super lazy lately... Maybe next blog will be fashion related post? Love life? Nahhhhh. Fashion is goof. hehe. Love ya'll
Yours Truly,
Sharmaine
