I just binged watch MAID on Netflix. It was.. quite good. It wasn't super exciting from beginning until the end, but somehow I think i can relate to whatever happen in the series. This is not something I am proud of and definitely not something that I wish that I can relate. So, why did I say I can relate huh? Hmmm. its story timeeee, go and prepare your popcorn.
If i were watch this series 10 years ago, I would be like... DUMB OR WHAT? THE GUY IS SHIT & ABUSIVE, JUST LEAVE HIM... But sadly, I sort of understand why they stayed even their bf or husbands are crazy ass abusive motherfuckers. Around 6 years back, when I first met my ex, he was a nice guy & seemed to be super gentleman. Why did I say he is a nice guy, he's a guy that would prepare tissues when you are washing your hands after using the toilet, hold your hair while you are vomiting after a clubbing night. (maybe i was young, i fall for that kinda random lil things) Oh well, things started off pretty well, he was lil controlling but I thought it was normal for your boyfriend to care about your whereabouts right. So, I didnt think anything was wrong during that time.
So around half a year after we got tgt, i realized things changed a lil, he slowly showed the true color and his temper got worse. It started off not that bad, so it was just him tracking my phone and check on my locations, calling me names (b*tch/slut) for nothing & ask me to SNAPCHAT him what I am doing, so that i cant "FAKE" what i am doing in real time. Ok.. those are quite bad, not NOT THAT BAD... hahahha but then maybe it was love that made me compromise everything and listen to him all the time. Most importantly was to not trigger him, so tried my best to fulfil what he requested
I guess those things that I've mentioned was not that bad because there is no REAL domestic abuse involved (although emotional abuse is also a type of domestic abuse). So, things got worse after I started working in a new company and have guy colleagues, I am sure until today he still thinks I slept with all of them, at least one of them. LOL, jokes. So, some physical things happen when my guy colleague texts me, even its discussing about work stuffs, he would go ALL CRAZY and punch and cupboard. It wasnt just a punch, it was non-stop kinda punches. In the show MAID, the husband punched the wall right beside her face and some one from shelter said somethign that really affects me was, "that time he punched the wall beside you, the next time your face will be the place that he punches" I really do think this is true and I cant believe no one tells me this is not right, because I am pretty sure a lot of young girls out there thought this is a normal thing that you boyfriend can do when he is angry. But, the truth is no, he shouldnt be doing that and it is definitely not an excuse even though he is angry or drunk.
After that incident, whenever he is angry, he will walk into the toilet and punch the toilet door. and yes, he did broke one of my toilet door and i had to lie to my mum and say it was the mop that poke into my wooden door.
TO BE CONTINUED....
