MAID (Domestic Abuse)

 I just binged watch MAID on Netflix. It was.. quite good. It wasn't super exciting from beginning until the end, but somehow I think i can relate to whatever happen in the series. This is not something I am proud of and definitely not something that I wish that I can relate. So, why did I say I can relate huh? Hmmm. its story timeeee, go and prepare your popcorn. 

If i were watch this series 10 years ago, I would be like... DUMB OR WHAT? THE GUY IS SHIT & ABUSIVE, JUST LEAVE HIM... But sadly, I sort of understand why they stayed even their bf or husbands are crazy ass abusive motherfuckers. Around 6 years back, when I first met my ex, he was a nice guy & seemed to be super gentleman. Why did I say he is a nice guy, he's a guy that would prepare tissues  when you are washing your hands after using the toilet, hold your hair while you are vomiting after a clubbing night. (maybe i was young, i fall for that kinda random lil things) Oh well, things started off pretty well, he was lil controlling but I thought it was normal for your boyfriend to care about your whereabouts right. So, I didnt think anything was wrong during that time. 

So around half a year after we got tgt, i realized things changed a lil, he slowly showed the true color and his temper got worse. It started off not that bad, so it was just him tracking my phone and check on my locations, calling me names (b*tch/slut) for nothing & ask me to SNAPCHAT him what I am doing, so that i cant "FAKE" what i am doing in real time. Ok.. those are quite bad, not NOT THAT BAD... hahahha but then maybe it was love that made me compromise everything and listen to him all the time. Most importantly was to not trigger him, so tried my best to fulfil what he requested 

I guess those things that I've mentioned was not that bad because there is no REAL domestic abuse involved (although emotional abuse is also a type of domestic abuse). So, things got worse after I started working in a new company and have guy colleagues, I am sure until today he still thinks I slept with all of them, at least one of them. LOL, jokes. So, some physical things happen when my guy colleague texts me, even its discussing about work stuffs, he would go ALL CRAZY and punch and cupboard. It wasnt just a punch, it was non-stop kinda punches. In the show MAID, the husband punched the wall right beside her face and some one from shelter said somethign that really affects me was, "that time he punched the wall beside you, the next time your face will be the place that he punches" I really do think this is true and I cant believe no one tells me this is not right, because I am pretty sure a lot of young girls out there thought this is a normal thing that you boyfriend can do when he is angry. But, the truth is no, he shouldnt be doing that and it is definitely not an excuse even though he is angry or drunk. 

After that incident, whenever he is angry, he will walk into the toilet and punch the toilet door. and yes, he did broke one of my toilet door and i had to lie to my mum and say it was the mop that poke into my wooden door. 

TO BE CONTINUED....

I-N-S-P-I-R-A-S-I

 Yes, just randomly have the inspiration to write. Actually its because i bought a new laptop, so just want to test out the keyboard and make sure every key works. HAHHAHAHA. 

(Ignore the polaroid photo, I just found it from one of my file) 

I started working since Monday and I really think my new company is a fast moving company and I really look forward to work for them! It's been awhile since the last time i can spend freely in the company. Hahhaha. kidding. I mean it's not that bad and my team seems quite cool and nice (too soon to say, but i can feel it...) 

I know this blog only read by less than 10 people but they are really important people, so I will keep this blog alive for THEM! muahahaha. 

Okay. speaking of inspiration, I just finished Gossip Girl V2. It is actually not bad, it is not that mainstream (girls with long hair), the girl is actually bald. After watching that movie, I think it is scary (but exciting) if we have a gossip girl in our lives. "IT" will report whatever wrong doing / scandalous things that happen around us. Not too bad huh, but for those that are cheating (then too bad la) because there wont be any cheating cases anymore. I dont mind being the gossip girl. HEHEHEHEE. Damn random I know. But then, imagine somebody is spotted driving into someone else's house... LOL! Lagi best if it is married couples. HAHAHHAHA. I think i am a bit siao d... 

Ok.. back to work. bye 

Starting of something new

 Hi everyone, 

Normally when i say starting of something new, or a new chapter ahead, means I just broke up or just had a rough and stupid relationship. But it's different this time. Haha! I am starting a new job and tomorrow is my first day... Wish me luck? 

I have mixed feelings, excited yet nervous. I guess it is normal to feel that way after staying and getting comfortable in one company for almost 6 years. So now, it's time to move on and never look back. Airasia has given me a lot, like chances to travel WHENEVER i want, meeting new and nice people, learning how to deal with a lot of shits and of course dealing with stupid people. Oooops. Not stupid, just people that are hard to deal with. 

Just finished watching Gossip Girl 2021. It is surprisingly nice, although many of them said it is really bad compared to the first one. But who asked u to compare? why cant you just watch it and give the new people a chance. Oh well, everyone has their own POV anyways.... But I personally like it. HEHE, and Julien Calloway is my favourite character! How can someone look so good without any hair! I will have triple chin if I have her haircut. HAHHAHAA. 

I have orientation tomorrow morning for my new job. Actually the onboarding starts at 1pm, but they want us to wish GOOD MORNING or HELLO in our group chat in the morning to PROVE that we are awake. TBH, i don't believe in this kinda shit because I personally think you only do that if you DON'T HAVE TRUST on your employees. Ughh. But nevermind, maybe that's what the management or SOP from the company. Hopefully my team or my manager is not like this. I join the company to contribute what I've learned or to learn more on e-commerce, not to prove that I am doing something..... Ain't nobody got time for that. 

Oh yea, one more thing to update you guys, I've told my parents about my relationship already.. Maybe I should have another post about that huh. It's toooo long of a story.. and I think it deserves a post by itself. But all I can say is, it is not that bad at all. Phewwww. 

Okay, I think my post is toooo boring because full of words and words and words. Let's end this with my INTRODUCTION poster that I created for my new job:- 

Hope everyone stay safe and stay sane! Try to do something you love! 

You know you love me, XOXO, 

Sharmaine 

Career vs Personal life

 Hi guys, 

I think my readers only a few of you. But I love all of you a lot a lot because you all always stay tuned for my posts. (I hope, haha). Alright. I am starting my new job in less than a month time and I am nervous and excited at the same time. 

Before getting into my job and shit... the latest update:  I took my second jab today, its for the Covid Vaccine (need to mention its for covid because maybe 10 years later, when i read my blog again, i wont know what jab is that for, hahaha) 

(for myself to remember...I took a photo while i was shitting after the second dose) 

I wanted a nice photo at the photobooth, but i looked like a person that kena covid, not kena jabbed. LOL.. Damn geli. Oh well. its okay. i have this... 

Alright back to me switching job, I have a mixed feeling with switching my job. I am excited because I can't wait to start a new adventure and can't wait to learn! and of course, I am excited to meet new people as well! But the other side of me is so comfortable being in my comfort zone in my current job... sighhh. Problematic...we are never satisfied with where we are at. But.. I've already made the decision to pursue into a new adventure, i think i should just focus on the path that i've chosen. :) 

This is a short post because i dont have inspirasiiiii! ....ok. till then. Bais

Contented

 I think it's been awhile since I've felt contented and happy. Hmmm. Money can't buy happiness, but without money, you wont be happy. Oh well, this is fact and nobody can deny that. Somebody asked me before, would you rather cry in a Myvi or cry in a Mercedes or BMW? Hahhahahhaa. stupid example, and i still think it is stupid. LOL 

By the way, recently I am super into F1. Watching them driving so fast, the adrenaline and heartbeat and uncertainty of what is going to happen next just felt so good. I guess it is a sign of aging. Nothing in life is so exciting anymore. Things are sweet and stable now. Not much of ups and downs... Sometimes it is a good thing, but sometimes the inner me will be thinking... Is that all for my life?.... Sigh... Maybe also plus we are in the middle of the lockdown so there's nothing much we can do. Haha. 

I've resigned a couple of weeks ago. and now i am in the midst of adjusting from one company to another. I am still in airasia, but I will be shifting soon. I don't know how to feel after being in airasia for almost 6 years.. Hmmm, i guess it is almost time for me to move (and of course I only left because I've got a better offer la) hahahha. As I said, money... can buy happiness, sort of. But money definitely is NOT everything. 

Last week, I've a good news from my best friend in Adelaide. AND SHE IS PREGNANT! isnt that the best news after SOOOOOOOOO long. Me and Yunyun of course super excited and happy and cant wait to fly to Adelaide to visit Ang Jr. Ughhh. but this virus is stopping all these from happening. We've all grown up... Cryy** Yun and Shinyee were my best friends since I was 7 & 9! And we are like inseparable. I love them, they cool. One is pregger, one is getting married soon (got engaged). And me... just worry what to eat for dinner? Or what outfit to buy from Zalora or Pomelo. Hhahahhahahah. what am I doing with my life actually. But the scariest thing is... I am happy with my life right now. I can buy whatever I want to buy, I can eat whatever I want to eat. And most importantly, I can shop whatever I want (maybe I am not that demanding or maybe I dont chase after luxury goods, thats why I am happy) Of course, I will save up to get things I like once awhile. When I say things I like which also means things are more unreasonably expensive, like a bag that costs RM20k or even a car that I like. But, even without them, I am still happy 

The older I get, the more I think happiness is very simple. My happiness list is very simple:- 

1. Family and friends around me are happy, and have financial freedom 

2. Work/Meet with lesser stupid people at work place. (this one can vomit blood) 

3. Eat & Drink whatever I want. (if can, then don't put on weight after eating la) 

4. Netflix and a comfy bed 

5. Travel whenever I can. (don't have to luxurious ones, but it can be.. muahahhahah) 

6. Get to use promo code whenever I shop online 

7. When I can fit into S sized clothes. hahhahahhah

To be honest, I really cannot think of anything else. Any small things can make me happy. 

Lemme share some photos of my views for the past few weeks. 

 

The Westin Desaru Coast Resort

 This is just purely sharing, not sponsored. (not enough views to get sponsored anyways) hahahahaha. Since we cant travel overseas and people are desperate for vacation, so LOCAL STAYCATION IT IS! 

A few months back, I've decided to visit Desaru in Johor because I saw a few nice hotels around that area. At the end, we've decided to visit Westin Desaru because the prices are reasonable and the hotel reviews are good. 

Okayyy, let the photos do the talking then:- 

So, we booked from a friend of ours who worked in Sedunia Travels. And the service was superb. 

The room we've chosen is the Premier Sea View, Guest room, 1 King, Sea view, Balcony

I think the surrounding of the resort is really clean and well maintained. However, the only problem we had was there were not many places to explore nearby the resort. It is in the middle of nowhere. But, we managed to find a place for seafood restaurant around 5km from the resort BUT IT IS HELL OF A SCARY ROAD on the way there....  The food was not too bad, I think because we ordered the wrong lobster. We ordered the ones with curry & salted egg. I would recommend you all to order something plain or less flavored so you can taste the lobster taste. 

Alright next, I would like to bring you all to the BEACHHHHH. I was shocked that it was quite crowded and the resort was quite congested. I guess its because like I said, people are desperate to go on a holiday. But overall, the beach, the sun-beds are clean and nice

Okay. Till then <3 

Interracial Relationship

 

If you don't know what interracial relationship means, it simply means relationship between different races. But I personally think that this term should not even exist because a relationship between two people should not be categorized by the skintone of each person. 

I guess a lot of us in Malaysia been through a childhood when our parents or grandparents will say if we dont listen to them, then abunene (indian people) will catch us. Hmmmmm. Then slowly it grew in us that darker skin tone people are bad people. I thought so too when i was younger.... i think until i entered college and university where the races are more diversified, then the thought has disappeared automatically.

After I graduated, I moved to KL and I see a lot of interracial couples living happily. I have a close friend / manager in my current company, she is married to an indian guy and she is EXTREMELY happy and I felt interracial couple or dating Indian is no where near scary. In fact, I think its pretty cool. I legit think that no matter what race we are, as long as two people click and have the connection, then nothing matters. The most important thing is, two individuals are happy despite what the outside world thinks! P/s, mixed babies are the cutest! 

I had ex that was violent, but he was a CHINESE. wow. got violent chinese one ah. 😏

Ermmm. DUHHH... dont so stereotypical pleaseeeeee. I do believe that every race got good ones and bad ones. 

Glamorous Night

 Oh well. I was looking through the old photos and realized I've attended an award show and all of us look great! I know a bit perasan, but I am serious. We looked good on that night! Haha. Let me share some of the photos for memories sake. 

I think i closed my eyes on purpose one.... Hmmmm Weird 

What? It's already May 2021?!

 Alright, this is gonna be a random post. I am posting this because my friends don't let me upload these photos of my birthday on my social media. They said they are ugly... -_- Pleaseeee they are not..... Nonsense.... 

Just a quick update about myself. We are now in MCO 3.0. 10 years from now I will be sharing this story to my kids (if i have one). Hahahhaa. Telling them that we used to work from home, eat from home, party from home, basically.... stuck at home most of the time. (not voluntarily or willingly. It's just orders from the government. Oh well. Stupid covid. Let me rewind a bit since these two months has been shit because I was home most of the time. So, let's rewind to the good times, which is my birthday! 

Okay, so during my birthday, someone arranged and planned the whole thing and I am beyond thankful someone in my life <3 

So, he arranged a staycation in Ruma Hotel and I would highly recommend that hotel because it is too crowded and the hotel design is really artsy fartsy.

And of course I have to be SUPER EXTRA in such a nice hotel 

I can't express how lucky I am to have people that love me so so much! Of course they are lucky too. (because I am their friend) Okay, surprises didnt stop there. 

So, someone brought me to get my birthday gift because I've been bugging someone. 

Thank youuu <3 I really love it 

And then, someone planned a surprise dinner for me! By inviting people that matter to me... Ahhhh 

And a few more celebrations with awesome and beautiful people in my life 

And last but not least. MY FAMILY <3 THANK YOUUUUU for the yummy steamboat and beautiful cake. 

Didnt post this on social media because too ugrey. Hhahahahahhahah